Day 4:
Today is Saturday (duh, Ashley, of course it is) and I did better than I thought I would. Probably due to the fact that I slept 'til one in the afternoon. I guess I figured that without the distraction of school, I'd do worse on the weekends. I have noticed that certain spots on my head have been hurting slightly, though. I've heard that can happen. But, for me, it makes me want to pull more. I feel like pulling would make my scalp feel better (even though it would make ME feel worse...). But I resisted. I've had my hair up in a braid for the past week. Mostly because of two reasons: 1) It keeps the hair out of my face, and 2) I don't trust myself otherwise. If I let may hair down, and my mom wasn't in the room, I think I'd have a much harder time with the temptation. I've also noticed I've been more depressed the past few days. I don't know if this has anything to do with trich or if I just need to change my medication. I don't know... I'm just taking it one day at a time at this point.
DFTBA,
-Ash
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Lulls and Tools
Day 3:
Okay, so this post might not be very long because I'm not feeling so hot. So, today, I made it without pulling. I'm not having many urges, though... And I'm scared that this might just be a lull. (I don't know if anyone else gets these, but I get lulls in my pulling where, one week, I won't pull as much, and then the next, I'll pull like crazy.) My mom ordered my NAC (that's N-Acetyl-Cystein, to anyone who doesn't know, it's supposed to decrease urges in people with Trich.) yesterday and I'm interested to see how/if it works. I haven't really been doing anything, tool wise, though. I'm using my make-shift spinner ring my mom gave me when I'm uncomfortable or stressed or bored, I've noticed. And I'm planning on making a sign saying "You can do it" to put on my wall, and maybe the art project will occupy me for a few hours. So, yeah, that's pretty much all for right now. I don't really know how to keep going without rambling, so I'm just going to end it here.
DFTBA,
-Ash
Okay, so this post might not be very long because I'm not feeling so hot. So, today, I made it without pulling. I'm not having many urges, though... And I'm scared that this might just be a lull. (I don't know if anyone else gets these, but I get lulls in my pulling where, one week, I won't pull as much, and then the next, I'll pull like crazy.) My mom ordered my NAC (that's N-Acetyl-Cystein, to anyone who doesn't know, it's supposed to decrease urges in people with Trich.) yesterday and I'm interested to see how/if it works. I haven't really been doing anything, tool wise, though. I'm using my make-shift spinner ring my mom gave me when I'm uncomfortable or stressed or bored, I've noticed. And I'm planning on making a sign saying "You can do it" to put on my wall, and maybe the art project will occupy me for a few hours. So, yeah, that's pretty much all for right now. I don't really know how to keep going without rambling, so I'm just going to end it here.
DFTBA,
-Ash
Thursday, February 24, 2011
For Starters
Day 2:
I don't really know how to start this. Um... My name's Ashley, I'm 17, I live in a small town in North Carolina, and I have Trichotillomania. Just in case anyone doesn't know, Trichotillomania is a compusive disorder in which one has the urge to pull out one's own hair. Most people pull from either their head, eyebrows, eyelashes, pubic, arm, or leg hair, or a combination. I usually pull from my head, eyebrows, eyelashes, and only sometimes my pubic hair. I've had Trich for... 3... 4 years? Somewhere in there. I've only just recently really put forth an effort to fight this monster. The reason I'm making this blog, is because I want to document my progress. I want to brag to someone about my successes, and have a therapeutic outlet for my failures. I'm already marking down the days I've gone without pulling on my calendar, but this will give me a place to really talk through my struggle. Hopefully, I'll be able to make a post everyday and talk about how the day went; when I had an urge, if I acted on it... My inner monologue, if you will.
So, that's all for this post. I just wanted to get this introduction out of the way.
DFTBA,
-Ash
I don't really know how to start this. Um... My name's Ashley, I'm 17, I live in a small town in North Carolina, and I have Trichotillomania. Just in case anyone doesn't know, Trichotillomania is a compusive disorder in which one has the urge to pull out one's own hair. Most people pull from either their head, eyebrows, eyelashes, pubic, arm, or leg hair, or a combination. I usually pull from my head, eyebrows, eyelashes, and only sometimes my pubic hair. I've had Trich for... 3... 4 years? Somewhere in there. I've only just recently really put forth an effort to fight this monster. The reason I'm making this blog, is because I want to document my progress. I want to brag to someone about my successes, and have a therapeutic outlet for my failures. I'm already marking down the days I've gone without pulling on my calendar, but this will give me a place to really talk through my struggle. Hopefully, I'll be able to make a post everyday and talk about how the day went; when I had an urge, if I acted on it... My inner monologue, if you will.
So, that's all for this post. I just wanted to get this introduction out of the way.
DFTBA,
-Ash
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